I’ve literally spent the past hour crying hysterically, as my boyfriend bluntly informed me of everything he dislikes about our relationship and myself!
Generally, he’s a bottler-you know, he holds everything in until he explodes- Well, tonight, the cap gave and exploded all over my face!
I know I’m really counting my lucky stars to have him, but sometimes, we are just worlds apart. My outgoing, fun-loving, care-free nature seems to anger him more than you could imagine. He considers my life “scattered” and “a mess”. Despite being together for a few days under one year, it’s only recently that he’s began to develop this unhappiness-I’ve noticed.
All I ever think about is how to make him happy- gifts, surprises, holidays, etc. Yet, I’m still doing something wrong. In some way, my efforts are deemed ‘good’ but not exceptional. I wish he would talk to me more! omg! I try to be considerate of his space and try not to push him, but I’m left in the dark to simply make up things as to why he may be upset with me.
My need for a little affection is growing! Cuddles and Kisses and cuteness are all a complete fantasy. Sure, maybe I’m a female and I expect too much, but come on… bed time cuddles are hardly PDA? Seriously. I just was to feel a little bit of physical love sometimes…. even throw in a touch of emotion if you’d like?
Jesus Christ *excuse the Blasphemy* My perfect little relationship went tits-up in a matter of hours and I’ve no idea what the hell I’m meant to do about it. WHY? WHY? WHY?